It sounds a little bit like “Jungle Booty” doesn’t it?
I came up with the expression “like a Jenga Puzzle built on quicksand” awhile ago. I can’t believe I haven’t wrote about this before. When you lose weight, things change. That much everyone knows. Your body changes, you start to look better. Yay! Well, usually.
Weight doesn’t come off the way it went on. It’s like the honey badger, it does what it wants! It would be so nice if weight loss worked like a rewind but it has other plans. Right now I can feel my ribs clearly. I can even reach under them. My ass has flattened. I no longer have “the bubble” off my caboose. But, I still have two rolls of abdominal fat. And that same abdominal fat is not symmetrical from left to right. Once again, I’m having trouble keeping my pants up because without the butt, it’s like trying to put a belt on a beach ball. My arms have lost underlying fat, but have just ended up looking deflated, while my neck has gotten gorgeous angles.
The real source of the expression is more about the way that I feel when I exercise. Even losing a modest 6 lb has ripple effect impacts in my body. A small change in weight, a shift in how it works, and everything is different. The way I think about it is my body has adjusted to life being larger than expected. Some large and small muscles aren’t being used as they were probably intended. After years of living as a larger size, they’ve made adaptations to still be able to move as much as possible, even if it isn’t the right way. Once I start to lose this extra size, suddenly they are not required to work as they once did, and they are not ready to work as they should. This sometimes feels like a giant step back, but it is more like a side step, followed by a forward step that is really, really hard – like walking against the current of a river.
I’m still active and it’s still forward progress, even when it feels like it isn’t. I’m using more and more of my body the right way. It’s actually really great to learn to recruit my gluteus properly. I’m still mastering the lunge, but I know that it is always improving. In general, I love being more active. I love waking up in the morning and not having pain in my hips and lower back. I’m looking forward to my next round of learning more about myself and my body and I’m excited to see what I can do.