Officially a PiYo LIVE Instructor

It feels like I’ve meant to write this blog entry forever! At Beachbody Summit in Nashville I became a PiYo LIVE instructor.  I can lead classes now!  This is really exciting and actually fulfills a dream of mine that I never thought I’d reach.

I’m going to put this out there – yes, I have the audacity to be a group fitness instructor as well as a health and wellness coach.  Sure, I’m not a finished product – but will anyone ever be? Maybe I can start giving back NOW instead of waiting until a period of time in the sometime future where I feel I deserve this.

That’s crap.  I work hard.  I don’t deserve anything.  I’ve earned this and I intend to keep earning it every day.

Back in 1998 when I started going to Gold’s Gym in Bangor, ME I took Step Aerobics from a woman named Gina Toman.  She quickly became a mentor to me, whether she knew it or not.  The other group exercise instructors there as well totally inspired me.  But Gina was one of a kind.  I knew that leading a group class someday was something that I needed to do.

So why PiYo?  First of all – I love it.  Yoga is a passion of mine and Pilates is something I wish to improve at, so I had the interest when I started.  But PiYo is so much more than Yogalates. It really makes you FEEL like an athlete.  Emphasizing strength and flexibility, but sweating up a storm to good music – incorporating elements of dance and (believe it or not) gymnastics – it’s the whole package.

All official

All official

Serving people who do not feel that they can handle an intense group class is something I am excited about.  I’m still struggling with the moves, I modify. I literally have body parts in the way from doing some kick throughs.  The greatest part of PiYo is that it’s accessible to everyone.  There’s modifications YOU can do.  There are ways to push yourself, get a good workout, and be safe.  The best part is, at the end you are accomplished.

I am interested in making people feel like they can do more than they thought they could.  There is bliss to totally nailing Warrior 2.  There is a high you get from knowing you did more today than yesterday.  I want people to believe they can do something scary and outside their comfort zone.  I’m sure stretching outside of my own comfort zone with being an instructor!

Now if only I could get the musicality and cueing down.  🙂  I plan on making friends practice with me a lot in the coming weeks.  You’ve been warned.

Turn Up for the 90s – Starbucks Playlist

Starbucks usually has pretty depressing music piped in.  Sure, it’s the coffee house vibe, lots of soulful singer/songwriters, acoustic guitars, etc.  But, I swear, sometimes it feels like music to say goodbye to the world to.  However, right now there’s actually a fun playlist for Summer!  And because I love you, I got it all written down and I will share it with you.


Red Hot Chili Peppers – Soul to Squeeze

Counting Crows – Perfect Blue Buildings

U2 – Ultra Violet

Natalie Imbruglia – Torn

The Sundays – Here’s Where the Story Ends

Alice in Chains – Brother

Smashing Pumpkins – 1979

Ani DiFranco – 32 Flavors

Verve Pipe – Bittersweet Symphony

Cornershop – Brimful of Asha

Sonic Youth – Bull in the Heather

The Sundays – Can’t Be Sure

Tori Amos – Caught a Lite Sneeze

No Doubt – Don’t Speak

The Cranberries – Dreams

Pearl Jam – Elderly Woman Behind Behind the Counter in a Small Town

Depeche Mode – Enjoy the Silence

Foo Fighters – Everlong

Mazzy Star – Fade into You

Blurs – Girls and Boys

Pavement – Here

Radiohead – High and Dry

Bjork – Hype Ballad

Jane’s Addiction – Jane Says

Luscious Jackson – Lady Fingers

REM – Losing My Religion

Cardigans – Love Fool

Goo Goo Dolls – Name

REM – Night Swimming

Blind Melon – No Rain

Pearl Jam – Nothingman

U2 – One

Garbage – Only Happy When It Rains

Squirrel Nut Zippers – Put a Lid on It

Everclear – Santa Monica

Rusted Root – Send Me on My Way

Fuel – Shimmer

Nirvana – Something in the Way

Portishead – Sour Times

Lisa Loeb and Nine Stories – Stay

Radiohead – Street Spirit

Cowboy Junkies – Sweet Jane

Alanis Morrisette – Thank You

Blur – There’s No Other Way

Smashing Pumpkins – 33

The Verve – This Time

Primal Scream – Trainspotting

Red Hot Chili Peppers – Under the Bridge

Ride – Vapour Trail

Mojave 3 – Who Do You Love

Oasis – Wonderwall

Shania Twain – Still the One



Being Relentless


A friend I’ve known for the last 18 years described me as relentless a while back.  I felt like it was an incredibly flattering compliment, but in the back of my mind I felt like it was false.  Because I’m a quitter.

It’s easy to get obsessed with all the wrong turns you’ve taken and all the projects you didn’t finish.  And that’s what I pretty much equated my definition of success to.  Many times I’ve done the wrong thing and I’ve abandoned things I really wanted to work.  I can find examples in my personal life, in my professional career, in my education.  But the worst of it is how many times I’ve let myself down.

We’ve all heard about S.M.A.R.T. goals.  I know, it’s not sexy. But when I have goals, they are usually not SMART in any sense.  They are vague and intangible and things I don’t have a lot of planning sunk in to.  Just little, “wouldn’t it be nice” thoughts.  Well, of course I’m not going to be able to finish that shit!  I have no idea what it even is.

Also – I’m scared to death of letting myself down.  That’s ironic considering how much I’ve actually done it.  So scratch that – I think I’m actually scared of getting success.  Why? Because I probably feel like I don’t deserve it.

At this point, I need to take my own advice and become my own best friend, my own coach, my own cheerleader.  Of course I deserve it.  I deserve to chase every goal and grab it with both hands.  My top 3 pursuits in the past year have been:

1. Be happy.

2. Lose weight.

3. Make an income.

Admirable, vague, and really shallow (looking at you #2).  How about we try this again:

1. Continue to live mindfully and cultivate a positive attitude every day.

2. Make the nutrition and exercise changes necessary to lose 50 lb.  Have fun.  Don’t stop when things get hard.  Mix things up when they aren’t working or get boring.  Keep the big picture in mind at all times.

3. Build on my own transformation to get others on the same path, and serve at the same time as I earn income from this. And in the meantime, do everything I need to to get myself the tools and space I need to make this happen.

So, yeah.  I’m going to be relentless.  I’m not going to quit.  And I’m not going to give up if I stumble.