Uninvited Comments

I admit that I still keep my eyes down at the gym. I’ve been going to this gym for a year and certainly know the ropes, but I slink around and hope to not be noticed. My gym is awesome. I love the staff. The facility is beautiful. There is a lot to choose from. It’s concierge level. I’m also kind of a VIP. Most of the staff knows me. The other day I got waved through, with a guest, without having to go through hoops. But, my gym is also a place for pretty people, Olympians, trophy wives, serious athletes. There aren’t a whole lot of people like me.

Maybe I look like a gym beginner, but I’m not. Despite what it might look like from the outside perspective, I’m a work in progress. I don’t need to advertise any of this, so I just keep my head down, do my thing, give everyone their space and hope no one notices me.

Most of the time they don’t notice me. If they do, it falls in to a couple of categories.

Some days you just don't want to talk to anyone.

Some days you just don’t want to talk to anyone.

Category: HELPFUL CREEPY GUY. You’ve probably seen this guy. He approaches new women and offers his help. Maybe he tells you when he works out and offers to be your gym buddy. Maybe he gives you immediate advice. But he takes a little too much interest in you.

Category: YOUR FAT IS CONTAGIOUS. This can be male or female. If you work out too near them, they move. They give you a dirty look before they do. I met this guy at my first gym. I called his Mr. America and he was bad ass. He was also beside me on the day I fell off the stationary bike (true story). He didn’t move immediately, but any other time he saw me, he made sure to stay away.

Category: THE MOTIVATOR. This person tries to show you that, hey, they’ve noticed you. Good job. Not that they’ve seen you do anything. I actually had someone stop and tell me “I’m glad to see you here.” Uh, thanks, it’s good to see you, too? I realize that this is positive, but it feels like I’ve attracted unnecessary attention for nothing at all.

Last week, I had a new, different sort of encounter. I was doing my upper body circuit, trying to navigate the busy weight area. And I got an honest compliment about something I was doing. A lady, who later told me she was a Barre instructor, told me that I had perfect form in my push up. That was pretty cool. It was praise I felt like I earned. Of course it also made me paranoid when I did my next set, in case my form wasn’t as good!

Negative comments impact me harder than positive ones lift me up. This is something I have to work on. In a perfect situation, those would be inverse. In general, I’m trying to be more gracious about compliments. I was raised to beware of pride and vanity. Add that to my other issues, it can be a mine field. I smile and thank people, resisting the urge to point out the negativity, even if it exists in my head.

Friend Makin’ Mondays: Fill in the Blanks

So when exactly did it get to be Christmas Eve? I went from being well-prepared for the holidays to running around OMG and WTF at the last bell. We don’t travel back to Maine, we stay here in San Diego. I had the worst Christmas trip home in 2006 and my family and I agreed that talking on the phone and Skype would be enough.

My oldest friend, a girl who was my closest friend in high school, my rock in college, and my roommate when we hit “the big city” now lives here. Patrick and I are going to share our holiday traditions with her. He’s planning on cooking a yummy Christmas dinner for us and we’ll all do stockings first thing in the morning. Overall, very chill, and not rushed, which is nice.

The following are my answers to this week’s FMM. Answer this week’s series of questions on your own blog, link them up at All The Weigh, then go back to the comments and see what everyone else had to say.

Merry Christmas from two New England kids currently freezing in Southern California. :)

Merry Christmas from two New England kids currently freezing in Southern California. 🙂

1. I want to…really make a go of my small business idea in 2013. My job search has been more than tough. If no one will hire me, I will hire myself.

2. I’ve never…been happier with myself, as I am, than I have been this year.

3. I believe…that the ghost of my friend’s deceased cat, who’s ashes are currently staying in my house while my friend is between houses, is real and has been messing with the TV remote.

4. My mind often wonders…why the internet has made people so quick to judge. I thought having an open culture would bring people together, but I see so much bitterness and anger out there.

5. Last night I dreamed that…I met Wil Wheaton. That’s the only detail I can remember clearly!

6. This morning for breakfast I ate…Banana Stuffed French Toast. It was worth it.

7. My love life is…very happy and good. I’m married to the other half of myself that I never knew was missing.

8. I enjoy…being the center of attention. It can be problematic.

9. When I was a child I used to…act like a mini adult. I had my entire childhood in 4 years of college. Being an only child is interesting.

10. When I’m in the kitchen I…am usually doing the dishes. We seem to have so many of them.

11. My favorite exercise is…a toss up between swimming or step aerobics.

12. When I travel I…pack lightly, roll my clothes, and plan for the unexpected.

13. My friends would tell you that I am…fiercely loyal, devoted, concerned with their well-being.

14. If I had to eat at a fast food restaurant today I would choose…Subway.

15. My favorite…pet is my cat Tess. She’s more than a pet, she’s my friend, my daughter, my reason to be happy.

16. My home is…a work in progress. It’s true that you buy a house and then start changing EVERYTHING.

17. I read…the majority of news on Slate.com now that I have the app on my phone.

18. The last movie I saw was…Breaking Dawn. I was a little late to the theater to see it, but it was great. Better than the book.

19. Music makes me feel…like I can be the person I want to be. Music is just so evocative to me. I can find meaning in lyrics and melody and apply them to myself.

20. All I want for Christmas is…a good day with my husband and my oldest friend.

Fitness Assessment Day

Metrics rule!  Get it?

Metrics rule! Get it?

Today was my first day back with my trainer and I was looking forward to a good ass kicking. Instead, today was Fitness Assessment Day. I knew it was coming and my husband already went through the tests weeks ago.

Overall I think I did well. I really couldn’t attempt the handstand, so we just did a modified downward dog for that. The biggest obstacle for me right now is just the mass of extra weight. I’m super strong, pretty flexible, and seem to be doing well at the dynamic parts of fitness. But, I’m doing all these things wearing the equivalent of a weighted vest and the manifestation of a shirt full of balloons I can’t pop. It makes me happy to see how far I’ve come, and a little frustrated to see how far I need to go.

Keeping my routine up will be important, but it’s time to really go back to the drawing board with diet and nutrition. I know I could be doing better and I know I let meals slide, both on skipping them, and with eating the wrong things because I think I can get away with it. I can get away with it when it comes to maintenance, but not with progression. And drinking wine and eating dessert aren’t doing me any real favors!

So that’s where I’m at. Let’s see what I do with it.

Friend Makin’ Mondays: Christmas Questions

It’s been awhile since I’ve done one of these! Stupid West Coast time difference makes it difficult to get this done at a decent time. But, I’m being tricky and getting it done EARLY. I need to get all Christmas related errands done this week to be over the finish line.

So here’s what you need to know about Friend Makin’ Mondays: Check out my Q&A’s. Add your answers to your blog, then copy the link at All the Weigh so everyone can see your answers. It’s a great group of people!

1. How will you celebrate the holidays this year? We are staying here in San Diego. I don’t want to travel anywhere there may be snow after the Great Holiday Travel Fiasco of 2007.

2. What’s the weather currently like where you live? Like I mentioned, I live in Southern California. The mornings are cool, the day is pleasantly warm. (I was at the beach in a tank top and skirt today) The evenings get cool again. And by cool I mean 50s and 60s. Brrr.

3. Do you decorate your home for the holidays? If so, share a picture please! We usually do. This year we have got our decorations all out. My husband and I are both from New England, so there are different decorating traditions there. I’m trying to mix it up.

Here's our Christmas Tree!

Here’s our Christmas Tree!

4. What is your favorite Christmas movie? I love Rudolph. I also love the Charlie Brown Christmas special. But as far as live action, I have to go with “Scrooged.”

5. What is your favorite Christmas songs? I took a lot of Latin as a teenager in school. So Adeste Fideles is one of my all time favorites. I was a part of a sorority with a fun Christmas tradition that makes “Here We Come A- Wassailing” another good one. I love “Jingle Bell Rock” for a secular song. But I have to say, my favorite obscure song is “I Bought You a Plastic Star (For your Aluminum Tree)” because it means even more living here in palm tree territory.

6. Do you have an advent calendar? We usually get a one-use one and this year’s came from Starbucks.

7. Do you prefer color lights or white lights? Color lights are the best!

8. What is your favorite food to eat over the holidays? My mom makes the BEST peanut butter balls ever. She used to send us some, but then my husband went and got Diabetes, so she stopped. I’m joking, but she has stop sending us the treats since he can’t enjoy them as well.

9. Do you display a live tree, or do you prefer fake trees? I like live trees. They smell and feel the best. This is the first year we’ve had one since Maine. I was scared to get one and bring spiders in, but we bit the bullet and got one this year. Setting it up was full of drama with the tree stand. But it looks great! I’m even looking past the little spider web on my star. We also have a silver fiber optic mini tree and a pink “California tree” that I am decorating with only with ornaments that have no reference to winter and snow. If I could get a full sized silver tree, like they had in the 50’s, I’d probably be content to never get a live tree again.

This is the California Tree.  So far I've decorated it with Mickey Mouse bulbs, blue gems, and peacocks.

This is the California Tree. So far I’ve decorated it with Mickey Mouse bulbs, blue gems, and peacocks.

10. What would you need to make your holiday perfect this year? I don’t really *need* anything because I’m a really lucky girl, and very blessed. That said, if my extended family could not pour on the drama that I’ll have to hear about over the phone 19 million times, that would be fantastic. Sometimes being on the other side of the country has its advantages.

Seeing the World Through New Eyes


My LASIK surgery was last Friday and everything is going well so far.  In general it was ridiculously easy.  I was not nearly tranquilized to the point I thought I would be when we started the procedure.  But, I was okay.  The surgery didn’t hurt, a few times it felt weird and some of the optical effects I saw were REALLY weird.  It was really incredible that as soon as the correction was made, even the tracking lights on the machine snapped in to focus.

This little capillary break is the only thing visible from the surgery. It feels fine.

This little capillary break is the only thing visible from the surgery. It feels fine.

Recovery was a little rough.  The numbing drops wore off before the pain killer kicked in.  I had a long time where I just lay in bed and willed myself to fall asleep but I couldn’t because of the pain.  The Vicodin really didn’t kill the pain, it just made me feel weird.  I didn’t like it, but I took them anyway.  For about 4 hours I couldn’t open my eyes, but had to use the bathroom like every hour, which made my husband being home the best thing ever.  Thanks, P.  Seriously!

Then, around 6 PM I woke up and I could see.  The next morning I was 20/15 at my follow up.  I have no idea how long it’s been since I could see that well without glasses or contacts, at least since I was 12.

Post-op my distance vision is beyond sharp.  Closer up I have a harder time focusing, but that should get better.  I have night time halos but they aren’t as bad as I feared, and they’ll also get better.  I haven’t had a big problem with dry eye and I’m getting awesome about putting in eye drops.

I’m missing workouts, even with the annoyance of my glasses and I can’t wait to get going again.  And I’m very excited about swimming with my new eyes!  It’s going to make further triathlon training so much better.